Solo

30 min. I'm alone. I don't connect with people on a deeper level very often and when I do it's partial. I don't experience a sense of satisfaction or completeness from relationships. That makes me sad. I thought I experienced love at first sight a while ago. It turned out to be meaningless later on…

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The Body

25 min. Relax the body, relax the mind. Feed the body, feed the mind. Shut off the body, shut off the mind. There's two things going on at once. I'm thinking in ideas and concepts. This is primarily where my focus has been for some time now. I'm experiencing feelings and emotions and sensations. I…

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Insomnia

My success with sleep the other night didn't continue into the next day. I did sleep, but like 4 hours. It's bullshit. My body pisses me off. I can't control my mind, and any light amount of stress is enough to keep me up thinking. Every Monday the mail is insane at work and each week that goes by…

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No Escape

35-ish min. I stopped timing myself meditating. Not really on purpose I've just been more spontaneous about it. I have a really hard time sleeping without taking anything mind-altering, because I think a lot. It's been going on since high school probably. There's been many nights I've thrown my…

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You Are Gods

First we are nothing then we are gods. We contain ourselves in that we are contained in all things and all things are contained in us. All forms, images, concepts come into being by our being. All things are perfect. Everything has served its purpose. Everything will serve its purpose.

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