Sinner

19 min. I have habits I don't want to have. When I act by habit I feel a little ashamed deep down. When I don't I feel proud and happy. So when I'm not the person I want to be, I separate myself from who I am. There's who I believe I am and then there's the way that I am day to day. Today I started…

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I Love You

1 hour 35 min. The tiredness goes away after a while if you sit through it. The world continues to build itself toward a utopic vision. It desires the perfection of itself. Different groups have different ideas of what an ideal society would look like though, so they debate and war with one…

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The Voices in My Head

Can anyone stop thinking? Why is it that thoughts continue to narrate everything? When I write sometimes I think I don't have anything of any real value to say. Why? Where does that come from? Is that a genuine, honest and reasonable analysis or is that a faithless overreaction? I don't believe…

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Weirdo

Hello World.

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Cougars

29 min. I'm on OKCupid right now. I'm not having as much luck as I did a couple years ago. Last night though I came across this 49 year old woman in Connecticut and I thought she was a babe. So I sent her a message saying how I know I'm young but I think she's attractive. She messaged back with a…

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Michael Cera

17 min. I didn't feel like meditating today. Actually it hasn't been too great lately. I'm wondering if I should slow down and knock it back down to 5-10 minutes until I can get back into the groove of it, because I keep struggling with 20-40 minute sessions. Michael Cera showed up in some…

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The Lord Is My Shepherd

36 min. I remembered this girl from Puerto Rico (I think) that I met on a dating site. She managed to get some sort of scholarship to study in Syracuse for free or cheap. I was going to go on a date with her. She got sick and we moved the day. The night before the reschedule I went on a separate…

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Free Will

30 min. A lot of movement today. My mind is hopping, but that's okay. I think just sitting still while the mental storm passes by is enough to slow down and get clear. Something about holding back creates this open space to act more freely, instead of react to stimulation. I've heard a lot of…

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Chill Out

28 min. About five or six in the afternoon is when my body wants to go to sleep. Whenever I meditate after work, nodding off seems to be a pretty big obstacle. My breath slows down, weird dream-like thoughts start playing and I don't realize I'm passing out until my head falls over and wakes me…

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